been posting quite a number of emo posts recently... but seriously im super stressed out... shes screwing up my life... shes screwing me up... shes spoiling... stressing... killing... destroying... me... sooner or later white hairs gonna sprout outta my exploding head... (at least i wont be totally black anymore) but seriously la shes so dam pressurising me and its not suprising if i cant take it anymore and break like a string with too much tension one day :/ my life is so dam screwed up... im sick of it... extremely... im having an overdose of her and i think shes having an overdose of me too... its like i see her everyday before school, during school, after school... her two weeks in new zealand somehow brought me some relief...
i think its bad to have an overdose of things man... whether it was good or bad... it will end up bad... for example even the nicest songs that you enjoy listening to will turn boring if you listen to them again and again... ...
so... wad to do wad to do wad to do wad to do... someone tell me? shes been giving me tons and tons of pressure...and im left with no choice i'll just hav to talk to her tomoro... quit the team... and end this torture... pain... suffering... yea... i've gotta stop being a coward... go tell her and end it once and for all...
this decision may dissapoint some ppl i know... but im really sry guys... im very very and i mean extremely tired and stressed out... im serious... you dunno how sick im feelin right now... with mixed emotions and stuff... if given a choice i would'nt want to quit... but... i suppose all i can say is ........................................................................sorry
and one thing i want to add... dun quit the team just becos i did... dun ruin your own chance of being in the team just becos of me... you got in because you have the ability to... dun give up so easily ok...... you may be the one of the only few or maybe... perhaps even the only one left if pig leaves... but dun give up on the team nor yourself... you're not alone fish... you're not alone... i'll always be there to help you... count on me... dun worry alright? dun give up... for my sake... alright mama?
and to macdonalds... i dunno if you're really serious about leaving the team too but i hope you're not... just becos of your results. im sure the rest of the sec2s would'nt want you to leave too... u may not know this but i can see that the rest of the sec2s quite look up on you as one of the pillars of the team... keeping everyone together... yea so... i hope you dun leave the team so easily alright?
finally... to pig... u said u may be leaving after june if im not wrong? i suppose i cant really do anything about that if you really leave becos you're changing school... but of cos if possible i hope you can remain in the team... keep everyone together... bonded well... ensuring that everything goes well... everything is organised... and leading the team greater heights... i know you're the one who can do it... in fact... i believe you're the best person for the job... im sure you can keep the sec2s and 3s bonded together as a team and continue to progress... so... i really hope you will stay pig... dun let me down son.
i suppose thats all for today... bye...
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