its been a while since i last blogged... so well here i am again.
reason for me blogging? mainly due to fencing and the feel of continuing writing after writing yesterday's gp essay cos it went quite well (its been long since i wrote such a pretty decent essay :) )
been slacking (dun like this word) away giving crappy pieces of work for gp :/ though i've been getting decent marks... ...
got 28/50 for the first essay (seems quite shitty aint it) but considering the fact that i think more than half the class failed lol :p and that i wrote half of the essay standing up on the bus on the way to school in about 15mins... im kinda satisfied...
yesterday's essay had more effort put into it i have to say, and i kinda like it though some parts still sound bit noobish, and i had a couple more ideas that i didnt put in cos it was almost 12.00am the next day and i was lazy to write anymore. :/ ah well that isnt the point of me blogging today sheesh... i wanted to write a mini essay in response to how the school refuses to support fencing, giving crappy excuses such as having no funds... my foot... anyway... given that i have the whole of differentiation tutorial to complete today... im not going to write this... instead i'd be writing down some points as to how we feel about this issue...
the school claims it doesnt have funds to support us claiming that fencing is an expensive cca and that $8000 a year is a lot and they didnt have plan to have fencing as a cca in the first place.
response: yea right they dun have funds... cutting other cca's funds just because they didn't perform well in competitions... able to give some ccas like 6 figure sums a year and yet cant come up with $8000 to fund fencing for a whole year... etc etc etc... zzzzzzzz i... had so much going through my mind just now... but now... its just saddening how seeing how unhelpful the school is...
they claim tat they are willing to support us with places to have trainings and stuff but they're not going to recognise fencing as a cca and fund us in any way...
response: what an effort to try and sound supportive... like they don't know that without funding, even if we want to continue, we can't... cos we dun have the ability to pay for $100+ for every 10 sessions per person... we can always have training at the coach's place... tats not a problem... its the fact that we as students... having to continually ask our parents for so much money to support our desire to continue fencing... ... ...its just not us (at least me...) to do this...
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i dun feel like writing anymore... seriously... ... its frustrating how we fencers, are trying to get fencing to work... (like by paying the first 10 sessions ourselves)... yet the response we get from the school is... ... ... so so disapointing... ... ... ... ...
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tats it... ... ...bb
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Monday, April 6, 2009
15.10
argh... screwed up 2.4 timing... really screwed... thats like a C... ahhhh there goes my 30 points :/
the run was pretty screwed all thanks to myself... my bloody mind :/
knew my fitness was horribly lacking, like my leg muscles turned soft even when i "gek" it for quite some time already probably after netball training stopped and i kinda stopped playing soccer as well. (well for those who didn't know they used to be rock solid in the past :) ppl can vouch for it :/) but i still thought if i piaed i could get A and try and get a perfect score again this year :( (only to fail cos of my noobshit mind/will power that has always been lacking)
anyway...
first round was pretty relaxed as usual cos the lattic acid (i didn't take bio...) hadn't come into the picture. so when i ran past john tan the timing was 1.45. then the second round was the start of my troubles :( o yea i forgot to mention... dunno why the heck from the start of the first round my arms were dam tired/sore... like first time something liddat happen during a run... so i was like feeling all shitty already... anyway i could obviously feel myself slowing down in the second round cos of the tiredness and stuff both in the arms and legs. and by the time i ran past john again i think the timing was 3.51 or smth cant remember exactly.
then the 3rd round started... and all of a sudden there was like red light flashing in my eyes when i blinked and opened there were still these red flashes... and i was like oh shit... this isn't a good time to faint or screw my body up man...... feeling that i may have overworked my "lacking fitness" body too much in the first two rounds, and not wanting to risk my heart failing on me or collapsing and i slowed down by quite a bit more... by this time the tiredness in my legs made me forget about those in my arms :/ and well... my friggin weak mind finally gave way and... i walked... zzzzzzzzzz walked and walked and walked... i could feel my heart pumping away quite vigorously... and i walked and walked :(:(:( and started jogging again towards the end of the round... i knew my timing was screwed already having been overtaken by a few ppl :0 couldn't really be bothered with the timing anymore due to the fatigue that was attacking my legs... and my mind... so after that i walked for at about 100m every round after that. :(:(:( totally dissapointed in my horribly horrible weak will power that has always been... causing my physical ... inability to do really well. :(:(:( *emoing like mad*... more of pissed with myself though... anyway... some other factors that resulted in this 15.10 timing are... tat i didn't really check out the timing needed for A B C and stuff cos... well i... didn't really have to bother with those in previous years when my body was in a better condition :/
thus... i didnt have any timing to work towards to and just let my legs and mind do the job (which ended up quite unsatisfactorily imo) sure... i can still get a gold but... :( its kinda dissapointing not being able to get like 30 points :/
well i dunno about shoes being an issue... though i dun think they would have made much of a difference, maybe 30 secs at the very most? which would push the grade up to a B but... still not enough la... (flares up at the thought of the bloody idiot who stole my pretty new asics shoe costing $100) ROAR!!!
anyway... now im just waiting for the 5 items on wednesday and see how it goes... standing broad jump and sit ups aren't a problem... inclined pull ups... (my hands/arms are one of the weakest parts of my body)... i should be able to scrape an A as usual... as for shuttle run... speed aint a problem its the shoes... i dun really trust my school shoes for the friction cos its tested in the hall... which for some reason has bloody smooth floors which have dam little friction. yea... so i may have to borrow someone's shoes on tat day... cos... as mentioned aboved... some idiot stole my netball shoes last year -.- zzzzzzz... and... lastly....... sit and reach... managed to get an A last year for it though i must have forced the toot outta my legs to scrape tat A cos im seriously very... inflexible... last monday during the pretest i got like 37cm? -1cm cos of fingernails- john tan's reason... though i have to say tat is really flawed cos if our fingernails are long, we have a disadvantage at the start though we seem to have an advantage at the end (they actually cancel off each other) ........ anyway... im going to have to stretch like a ... dunno wad to say... and if i dun get 5 points for it... then forget it... im not going to go for 30points... however... if i manage to somehow squeeze out that 5 points for sit and reach... i... will want to retake my 2.4. (this time i'll wear a watch and borrow someone's shoes and well... i'll just force myself to get an A for 2.4 which shouldn't be a problem if i get 25 points for 5 items... cos i'll be motivated as well) anyway... most likely though... i dun think i'll be able to get an A for sit and reach seeing how the pretest went... so... hai... nvm then... i'll just see how it goes on wednesday :)
alright enough of napfa... bb again peeps :D
the run was pretty screwed all thanks to myself... my bloody mind :/
knew my fitness was horribly lacking, like my leg muscles turned soft even when i "gek" it for quite some time already probably after netball training stopped and i kinda stopped playing soccer as well. (well for those who didn't know they used to be rock solid in the past :) ppl can vouch for it :/) but i still thought if i piaed i could get A and try and get a perfect score again this year :( (only to fail cos of my noobshit mind/will power that has always been lacking)
anyway...
first round was pretty relaxed as usual cos the lattic acid (i didn't take bio...) hadn't come into the picture. so when i ran past john tan the timing was 1.45. then the second round was the start of my troubles :( o yea i forgot to mention... dunno why the heck from the start of the first round my arms were dam tired/sore... like first time something liddat happen during a run... so i was like feeling all shitty already... anyway i could obviously feel myself slowing down in the second round cos of the tiredness and stuff both in the arms and legs. and by the time i ran past john again i think the timing was 3.51 or smth cant remember exactly.
then the 3rd round started... and all of a sudden there was like red light flashing in my eyes when i blinked and opened there were still these red flashes... and i was like oh shit... this isn't a good time to faint or screw my body up man...... feeling that i may have overworked my "lacking fitness" body too much in the first two rounds, and not wanting to risk my heart failing on me or collapsing and i slowed down by quite a bit more... by this time the tiredness in my legs made me forget about those in my arms :/ and well... my friggin weak mind finally gave way and... i walked... zzzzzzzzzz walked and walked and walked... i could feel my heart pumping away quite vigorously... and i walked and walked :(:(:( and started jogging again towards the end of the round... i knew my timing was screwed already having been overtaken by a few ppl :0 couldn't really be bothered with the timing anymore due to the fatigue that was attacking my legs... and my mind... so after that i walked for at about 100m every round after that. :(:(:( totally dissapointed in my horribly horrible weak will power that has always been... causing my physical ... inability to do really well. :(:(:( *emoing like mad*... more of pissed with myself though... anyway... some other factors that resulted in this 15.10 timing are... tat i didn't really check out the timing needed for A B C and stuff cos... well i... didn't really have to bother with those in previous years when my body was in a better condition :/
thus... i didnt have any timing to work towards to and just let my legs and mind do the job (which ended up quite unsatisfactorily imo) sure... i can still get a gold but... :( its kinda dissapointing not being able to get like 30 points :/
well i dunno about shoes being an issue... though i dun think they would have made much of a difference, maybe 30 secs at the very most? which would push the grade up to a B but... still not enough la... (flares up at the thought of the bloody idiot who stole my pretty new asics shoe costing $100) ROAR!!!
anyway... now im just waiting for the 5 items on wednesday and see how it goes... standing broad jump and sit ups aren't a problem... inclined pull ups... (my hands/arms are one of the weakest parts of my body)... i should be able to scrape an A as usual... as for shuttle run... speed aint a problem its the shoes... i dun really trust my school shoes for the friction cos its tested in the hall... which for some reason has bloody smooth floors which have dam little friction. yea... so i may have to borrow someone's shoes on tat day... cos... as mentioned aboved... some idiot stole my netball shoes last year -.- zzzzzzz... and... lastly....... sit and reach... managed to get an A last year for it though i must have forced the toot outta my legs to scrape tat A cos im seriously very... inflexible... last monday during the pretest i got like 37cm? -1cm cos of fingernails- john tan's reason... though i have to say tat is really flawed cos if our fingernails are long, we have a disadvantage at the start though we seem to have an advantage at the end (they actually cancel off each other) ........ anyway... im going to have to stretch like a ... dunno wad to say... and if i dun get 5 points for it... then forget it... im not going to go for 30points... however... if i manage to somehow squeeze out that 5 points for sit and reach... i... will want to retake my 2.4. (this time i'll wear a watch and borrow someone's shoes and well... i'll just force myself to get an A for 2.4 which shouldn't be a problem if i get 25 points for 5 items... cos i'll be motivated as well) anyway... most likely though... i dun think i'll be able to get an A for sit and reach seeing how the pretest went... so... hai... nvm then... i'll just see how it goes on wednesday :)
alright enough of napfa... bb again peeps :D
Friday, April 3, 2009
1h 45min of sleep :)
stayed up late all night last night and slept at 4.15am today, woke up at 5.30am, slept again and finally woke up at 6.00am. all because of the pi :/ ah well i was feeling kinda awake and would have tried not sleeping at all and camping up till today morning and eat breakfast and go to school, if not for the fact that i was afraid my mama would wake up, see me and scold me for not sleeping. thus, i went to bed at 4.15am :)
well school today was pretty okay, though bit tired during the chem lecture, managed to force myself to stay awake. :D
then i decided to participate in the dragon boat competition organised by odac cos i think it should be quite a cool experience. :D
lalala... should i go sleep now? but i dun feel tired lala. maybe tonight i'll fall into a deep sleep and like wake up in the afternoon tmr? ah... tats it for today. bb ppl :D
well school today was pretty okay, though bit tired during the chem lecture, managed to force myself to stay awake. :D
then i decided to participate in the dragon boat competition organised by odac cos i think it should be quite a cool experience. :D
lalala... should i go sleep now? but i dun feel tired lala. maybe tonight i'll fall into a deep sleep and like wake up in the afternoon tmr? ah... tats it for today. bb ppl :D
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