time for a break...

I like walking... walking back home. Walking allows me to think...

I've finally decided... i've been dam troubled by this since last year... and finally... today... i made my decision - to quit the school team. Maybe i shouldn't havn't have gotten in this year in the first place. Maybe i ought to have come to this decision earlier. Anyway... now that i've decided to quit, i have to tell the teachers soon... tats the hard part about it... how to break it to them... ...

If i was told a few years back... that i would be quitting the school team a few years later, i probably wouldn't have believed it myself. But then again, who can predict the future...?

I remember when i first got into netball in sec1, Ms Cheang (now Mrs Khoo) asked me how much i wanted to be in netball... and i remember myself giving her a definite 100%. Two years from then... bout few weeks ago Ms Loo asked me how much i wanted to be in the team... and i gave her a 6 out of 10 rating which was quite low considering many people gave her a 10 out of 10... (mostly the sec2s).

See the drop within just 2 years? i've been playing netball for more than 5 years now... and yet i havn't gotten any achievements yet... and someone else who just played the sport for one year can get so many achievements... Know how frustrating it is? And personally, i feel that i havn't been improving much... probably remaining quite stagment... even after so many trainings...
Know how frustrating it is?? And knowing the fact that you have been training so hard for so long and in the end you don't get anything. Know how frustrating it is???

I suppose thats probably the main reason why im getting tired... and why i feel that i need a break... at least from competitive netball... Prerhaps with this break... i may be able to find my passion for netball again... perhaps its the competitiveness thats tiring me out... boring me out... maybe with this break... i maybe be able to reignite the flame of passion for netball inside me again... ah well... as i say again... who can predict the future???

Enough of this... i'll probably find an appropriate time to tell the teachers...
In the meantime... i shall start MUGGING!