people...

been some time since i last blogged... anyway im back.

im an introvert.
im more comfortable with people i know... but... who isnt? ......
but im definitely not an extrovert tats for sure.

so then... today i'll be talking bit bout 3/4B and bout relations.

some ppl click very easily with others some ppl dont.
some ppl click well with others yet cant click well with ... others.
its true... its like if ur personalities dont match its hard to become close to each other, regardless of how much time u spend together.
so its like this thing cant be forced... if ur personality and this other person doesn't click, then its really hard to become close. hmm...

and then... sometimes i feel dam sian... its like i think a lot... i consider a lot of things before i actually do something. sometimes i wish i didnt think so much, tat i can be more straightforward, just act first and think later. its like... lets say someone talks to me, asks me a simple question... i also can think like quite long before answering... think of how the other person will feel if i answer in this way or that way... does it sound rude etc. sometimes its dam frustrating. i'd rather be more ... simple minded?... straightforward and dun tink so much... cos its really taxing. and it does screw up relationships with others la...

like meijie... shes dam smart, she uses her brain a lot and is dam hardworking. and shes funky. lol. yea so by rights having been in the same class as her for over 1 year and hanging out together... it somehow doesn't seem right tat we're not as close as we ought to be. its like shes nice budden she thinks alot too. i wouldn't say im dam smart but if i say that im stupid, i would be lying =.= so this is where the personality thing happens... she smart and she thinks alot. im not stupid and i think a lot too. so when two ppl who think alot hang out together, the result is TOO much thinking... so, i try to think of what she is thinking, and i from my thinking of what she is thinking, i sorta know that she is thinking about wad im thinking . =.= (bit confusing?) yea tats the result of way TOO much thinking, and this often leads to misunderstandings cos sometimes u think wrongly.

heres an example: there was this once me, meijie and huixian bought a 1.5 litre bottle of drink after pe. so we drank and poured and drank and poured. so after i poured maybe the third helping of drinks for myself and huixian i left bout 1 cup worth of the drink for meijie. so when she poured the last bit of the drink into her cup, my eyes were basically following the drink cos i was afraid there wouldn't be enough for her. (this is me thinking now) ... and then, meijie realised i was watching the drink so she thought (this is her thinking now) i wanted the drink, so she poured the remaining bit of the drink into my cup. so i was feeling kinda stupid cos, i was afraid there wouldn't be enough for her and ended up she thought i wanted more so... basically tat was kinda silly and i would have laughed if i wasnt feeling so stupid =.=

anyway... so tat was one example of way Too much thinking... zzzz... see... this wad happens when two ppl who think too much hang out together... so sadly... until now... i still cant say that im very close frens with meiji and tat we do share some akward moments when the two of us are like alone =.= ROAR... damit man this sux cos shes nice and funky, budden its just tat somehow we cant click nicely :(

alright so tats a pity... and im feeling shitty (hey it rhymes) ok tat was dam lame.

anyway, so then ima talk a bit about 3/4B. bout the girls ba... not bout the guys in case it leads to some misunderstandings like poor wuyi had today. so then 19 girls. i group them into 5 cliques. 1.meije huixian and me de clique 2.chih yun sheryl de ++ de clique 3. zoey veng yi ++de clique 4. deng yin ying ting ++ de clique 5. charlene cassandra ++de clique. of cos among cliques and cliques some are closer to each other so i'll merge them up into ... 1.meijie huixian + chihyun sheryl ++ de clique 2. zoey veng yi ying ting deng yin ++ de clique 3. charlene cassandra ++ de clique so naturally some ppl are closer to some ppl... some ppl probably dun like some ppl as much. and so rifts appear and well cracks appear... and so, they're not very good for the class spirit ain't it. so wad happens?????

dun worry... there are some peace makers floating around... like ME. yea so... i float around and sorta be the peacemaker. anyway so wad do we peacemakers do? we go around looking for trouble ( sounds wrong )... ok we go around and we'll try to know wads happening. see why maybe someone isn't happy with someone else.

alot of times... as being peacemaker i found out... these unhappiness occurr mostly due to misunderstandings and well different opinions and also... standing up for frens.

ah let me explain the last bit "standing up for frens". this actually happens when one party isit very happy with "someone" for maybe something tat person does. then this other party, being frens with tat "someone" will be unhappy with the first party cos she feels tat the first party is lets say being rude or ap or many others etc. to tat "someone". so then this unhappiness chain goes on and on... and it's up for peacemakers like me to go to the rescue :) yay... ok... no im being lame again. wad i normally do is tat i go listen to both parties and probably try to reason with them, let them put themselves in the other party's shoes... (probably cos i do that loads of the time... think and think and think) yea... and hopefully the matter gets resolved :)

budden, u cant please everyone. theres bound to be ppl who don't like you. but there's nothin much u can do =.= like the northen ireland issue... been going on for years. protestants and catholics fighting. bombs going off ever so often... and what happens? many innocent neutralists get killed. they don't stand on either side, they sit on the wall... just like the me, the floaters... neutral... yet... often you'll get pulled into the battle... and sometimes, if ur unfortunate... u get killed...

so then.... this has been a pretty long post... loads of stuff tats been happening... so...
been blogging for like more than an hour... so... really tired... bye~